This guy, I mean, look.
There was a time when he admitted I was a friend.
Doesn’t help that there’s an extra layer of weight on it all – this feeling that I’ve let him down because of what happened the day I should have been looking out, should have handled things differently. And now it’s all a bit too uneasy.
Mostly though, I’m leaving. So that’s weird. And uncomfortable. For him and for me.
It’s tough to leave in a way that’s graceful, that puts all the feels out there, that keeps his dignity intact. Because at the end of it, we all leave, and we are all left.
It’s not awkward if only one of us is feeling hurt. Is it.
Or maybe one of us is too much of a man to admit that it hurts.
So he leaves, before I get a chance to. Shuts me out, turns me off. But not in a courageous way. It feels cowardly, cold, calculated. I don’t think I should resent it, but I do. I won’t emulate it, I resent it.
I think I’m not being completely fair, though. Because at the end of it, we all leave, and we are all left.
Whoa. So many emotions packed into one slice. Makes me reflect on my own life – the leavers and the left. Makes me know that you are one powerful writer for making me do that.
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Powerful. I enjoy being pulled in and then left to fill in the details. You allow your readers to make their own connections.thinking of the times I’ve been left behind…
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If this is an excerpt, I can’t wait to read the book. I feel you, Ghost. You speak for us all.
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Your description for the SOL day two comments brought me over to read. It’s deep stuff. We all leave and we are all left. Both suck. Thanks for sharing.
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Thought provoking! You got me thinking ..trying to read in between the lines. Strong writing. Thank you for sharing.
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Relationships- everybody is affected. Another powerful slice. Thank you.
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This is a very piercing post. It really got me thinking. I like the ambiguity of this post, the details that you left out. The white on black makes it easy to read!
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