I tend to hold on.
Sometimes, too tightly.
And in a moment where control, any control, is a darting fly, daggering here and there, unpredictable.
so much is beyond us
But, what is not beyond us, today, is a morning trip to the park.
We meander towards the entrance. All is in order, under control.
And then I spot the two employees, out of place, chatting, a four-legged sandwich board sandwiched between, making a four-legged sandwich.
We apologize for any inconvenience
I am hacked.
THIS IS INCONVENIENT
I want to say to them, as perhaps I raise a fist, in a sweeping gesture befitting a noble gentleman.
I SHALL BE WRITING A STRONGLY-WORDED LETTER TO YOUR SUPERIORS
But I don’t.
Instead I smile and wave. From a distance, of course.
This was to be the respite, the one place, the source and space for sanity.
But these are unusual, challenging times.
Sanity is at a premium.
We turn around and head back, and I attempt to make the best of it. Luckily, the boys are unfazed, like this pandemic thing is just another way to pay homage to Plastic Man
It’s okay Papa. We can be flexible.
As I get older, I fear that I am becoming less so. My joints creak, I’m not nimble, my energy fades faster. I can’t bend like I used to. And I used to not bend much.
I tend to hold on.
But the lads have my back, today.
We wander down the road and Rhino suggests stopping at a patch of grass just off the now-shuttered golf course. We kick the ball back and forth a couple times when the course truck slowly pulls up.
Hey guys, sorry, course is closed.
IT’S OKAY, WE DON’T WANT TO GOLF
I want to yell, with a flourish.
AND I AM NOW GOING TO PEN A STERNLY-WORDED MISSIVE TO YOUR OVERSEER
But, instead. I take a breath and consider the circumstances. This random and good natured fella doesn’t mean to ruin our fun
And there’s something bigger at play
We pick up the ball. Wish him good health, with a nod. Look up at the sky. And practice